Leaving for Germany

Monday he leaves for Germany. He isn't married - the preacher had to do a funeral (?) Doesn't make sense to me. I am very very uneasy and I can't seem to concentrate or do anything. I feel like I want to explode or break something or scream or cry or SOMETHING.

He doesn't want to go to Germany. I keep telling him everyone I've heard from loved it there. He wasn't talkative and the whole conversation was pulling teeth. Like he didn't want to talk. I feel very uneasy about everything right now.