I Miss You

Had a rough day or two of missing Ty. Haven't heard from him in a while. Did send a check to help with his expenses coming home for leave, but don't have any more details on his plans. All I have are the dates when his leave starts & ends - May 26 to June 16. Still have no idea when or if the weeding is taking place. The more I think about that, the more I hope they hold off for now. You always think your first love will last forever. Some do. But most don't.

Went through a crying jag for a day or two - couldn't look at pics of him or anything. I was working on a collage artwork made from the drawing he did for me. There is this thing in Bellevue for artists to display work at the coffeehouse or this other site, and the May theme is Heroes. I wanted to get it done in time for that, but I've been so busy and really don't want to do a half-ass job just to get it done in time. I'll still work on it but not sure where I'll hang it.

He's got a page on MySpace now. Saw some pics I hadn't seen before, but I don't want to intrude. I think I sent a thing to be added to his friends list but was never added. Just as well I guess, he wants to keep it for him and his friends. I've been playing the "this time last year" game. This time last year he was gettin gready for Prom, for graduation, etc etc. NOW look where he is. God, what a change. And even when he's hom eon leave, his room is at his dad's and he will be with Gabby. I probably won't even hardly see him. I hope I at least hear from him on Mother's Day. Last year he was the only one to come visit. He brought me flowers. I still ahve the little card he signed with them. I miss him so much.